Life is Short, and love is shorter

Relationships: all of them - children, parents, friends, partners and some family (yes, all family just really not worth it).

Relationships are the basis of every person's life... You have relationship managers in companies who deal solely with making the client happy, building a trustworthy relationship with these people and learning their businesses. But how much of that is real? Very very little.

Shallow, this is the shallow part of relations when you need to smooze clients and get them to love you, play on their weakness as a person to get money or business out of them. Or in some cases, tit for tat. The problem with this is that it lends itself to manipulation not only in the workplace and business arena, but in the broader scheme of things - like this thing we like to call life.

Whoever invented that terminology and elaborately built upon the premise is one intelligent individual with a serious penchant for making money and a definite lack of empathy.

In other words, this is why I am so terrible at Sales. I've said it time and time again while interviewing and to many of my real relations, albeit not the closest of friends, I cannot sell. I don't believe in false confidence and certainly do not entertain the theory that if I could talk myself out of anything and into someones good graces, I will make a million. Problem is, it bloody works.

In relationships on a daily basis it is hard for me to suck up to anyone, my philosophy is; If you don't want to do it, then leave. If you're not here to work, then don't. If you're not going to buy it, I will not try sell it to you. Thereby, there are certain musts that must just be adhered to. Not only in order to remain a upright citizen, but for your own reputation in society and for your offspring to have a body to look up to, since most of the world are now learning relationship management, i.e. how to lie.

Don't get me wrong, not every acquintance I've made has culminated into a lasting relationship, people sometimes do not get on, others find over time that they weren't as suited as they would have liked. Also, some find out later that they were being managed for their peers benefit. Its all so damn complicated.

Being pushed around and bullied is purely being dominated by another, now what I'm saying above doesnt mean I want to dominate anyone, it simply means; I don't get along with people who try manipulate me into doing as they wish I would. I find that rather degrading and quite rude actually. All they need do is ask, and accept my answer for what it is as I would do in return.

The general population have been brainwashed into thinking manipulation is a formation of a relationship and that is the only way you can get what you want. If they actually went into the word relationship, they'd realise this is a connection - emotional or other - association or involvment. Getting involved with another person and building upon that base, between two people - whether it be an entire family or not, each individual person needs to build a relationship with the other. 

But who am I to judge, I've run away from real relationships almost all my life and will not bend or conform to the rules of society and the lack of connection.

Aah well, I'll find my passion and it will be where I'm able to be myself - hopefully its way before I kick the bucket.

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The year of the Dragon

In Chinese culture, (please do not quote me on this) the chinese try their utmost to have a baby in the Year of the Dragon, as it is a good omen. Most successful entepreneurs were born in a Dragon Year.

It is also quite a lucky year for most of the world - projects should come to fruition and if you really believe in this, the year will bring luck to all who have worked towards a goal prior to it.

I haven't blogged for the duration of my time at my current place of work, not only because I was absolutely busy with something that had very little to do with what I have been working towards but because I just had no means of doing this. Which, in reality is such a downside.

When you go out into the world to do or make something of yourself against all odds - and there are odds - the only thing that is certain, is that your attitude will determine your circumstance. No matter where you are, how you are and what you are, how you perceive where, how and what is ultimately the deciding factor.

I have since - in the last 7 months, realised that I just will no longer accept being stepped on. They say your 30's is wonderful, but so far it has been horrible. Why? Because I deserve the recognition I have worked for but am still being treated as though I were in my 20's, which has had me at a point where I wanted it all to just stop.

No one person could ever be beat down so much and continue as if nothing ever happened. They will do one of two things: die or fight back. The problem is, in order to fight back you have to be on the verge of dying. Such a tragedy.

If there is one thing I can say about life while I'm in a silly spin, is that it can change in a split second. The saying "Youth is wasted on the young" is so true, as you don't realise what is really valuable to you until you are about to lose everything including your most valuable (not material) posessions or persons.

Year of the Dragon or not, this year was going to be a deciding factor in my life at least. Things cannot and should not carry on as they did before, people and surroundings and life have to change in order to survive.

I will not be beat down ever again. That is how it will remain for the duration of my existence on this planet.

I'm happy to be back and will now begin my real blog, as I'm looking to write alot more this time around.

There is no better time than now.

Lols, signing off.