The last two posts were written over a year ago - and I've just re-read them.
LMFAO!!!! What an idiot I was to believe that I wouldn't let anything or anyone get me down, ever again....
The reason I haven't publsihed anything is becuase I actually lost everything - material and mind - in this last year and am now trying to gather myself together again.
When I say life hit hard this time, I mean it Fuckign screwed me sooo bad, I'm still trying to stop the bleeding! It would be great to explain the entire situation to you, but it seems that almost everyone I follow and those who follow me, have also stopped blogging. Even if I did, I don't think there are enough hours in a day to tell someone, let alone type it out.
To give you an idea, I got laid off while pregnant and haven't worked for 8 months. This job is brand spanking new (loving it) and my car has just been repossessed. The family are alive and we live with the boyfriend (god help us). This ultimately means I get to sleep next to the guy who assisted greatly, in ruining my life.
Here's what I'm happy about, I am alive, my kids are healthy, we are fed and relatively warm. Oh yes, and we have a roof over our heads.
I don't want to stop blogging here, but still think I should start a blog that isn't exactly anonymous. The problem with that is I can't speak about the boyfriend I cannot wait to get away from, the other guys I have in mind to hook up with as soon as I'm outta this damn relationship and the fact that being this depressed AGAIN with history repeating itself is just making the situation worse.
There seems to be a light at the end of the tunnel, and that is to go out on my own again, but only after I'm back on my feet. Lord help us if this shit happens again, next time may possibly be the end of me.
Either way, I'll blog again soon because I miss this so very very much.
Over and out.
